I am playing a game. I am patiently waiting my turn to roll the
dice once again. I watch in silence as my opponents before me make their move. I
watch in awe how they can take such brave steps, to make that journey one step,
one go at a time.
It is not a game of competition, nor is it a game of win or lose but more a game of life.
Some of my fellow game players have taken strategic moves, others have been based on mere chance. Either way, I admire them equally.
It is not a game of competition, nor is it a game of win or lose but more a game of life.
Some of my fellow game players have taken strategic moves, others have been based on mere chance. Either way, I admire them equally.
Everybody seems to be having so much fun, some of those closest
to me seem to be having so much luck that I can’t believe it, I have even been
feeling slightly envious that everything is going so well for them all and I start
to question my next move. –I don’t even know what mine is let alone when it
will be. I start confusing myself and I ‘miss a go’.
So my attention, not for the first time, is reverted back on
everyone else. I am feeling happy for my team mates and I am infused with their
passion and drive for life, they seem to play this game we have all been so
deeply involved with, so eloquently and wistfully. They make it look so easy
and I wish that I were them, so much so that I forget to have my own turn to
play.
And then that’s when it happens. A once crowded board with colourful
pieces have suddenly scattered. I find myself alone and I am afraid of being left
behind.
I then realise that after all this time I was holding the dice after all. I was clutching them so tight fearful of my next move that I couldn’t let go.
It dawns on me that I have been trying to control this game we call life, my only moves that I had been making recently were in my mind which had been focused on attempting to keep all the game pieces in one spot so that they could be close to me, so close in-fact, that I had neglected my own turn in rolling of the dice. The more I concentrated on containing all the pieces in one place, the further away they all became and the less I felt secure to move myself.
A pep talk from a trusted team player put me straight. For not only do I have a chance in rolling that
dice, to take brave steps if I so wished, I see now that I AM the game.
There will never be an end or a destination, there is not even a right or wrong move, even the ‘snake’ will lead me to a ladder. So I shall start over again. I will roll that dice once again. And even it takes me longer than everyone else to reach certain aspirations;, I shall continue keeping this counter moving round the board we call 'Life' and trust in the knowledge that even standing still at times, will still be leading me forwards.
I then realise that after all this time I was holding the dice after all. I was clutching them so tight fearful of my next move that I couldn’t let go.
It dawns on me that I have been trying to control this game we call life, my only moves that I had been making recently were in my mind which had been focused on attempting to keep all the game pieces in one spot so that they could be close to me, so close in-fact, that I had neglected my own turn in rolling of the dice. The more I concentrated on containing all the pieces in one place, the further away they all became and the less I felt secure to move myself.
A pep talk from a trusted team player put me straight. For not only do I have a chance in rolling that
dice, to take brave steps if I so wished, I see now that I AM the game.
There will never be an end or a destination, there is not even a right or wrong move, even the ‘snake’ will lead me to a ladder. So I shall start over again. I will roll that dice once again. And even it takes me longer than everyone else to reach certain aspirations;, I shall continue keeping this counter moving round the board we call 'Life' and trust in the knowledge that even standing still at times, will still be leading me forwards.
