Change Ahead.

I woke up feeling pretty down this morning. I took a shower and then cried. I felt better afterwards.
I am beginning to resurface from my bath water slowly but surely. The length of time is getting just a little bit longer before my body is immersed back in the water again later in the morning where I will remain for the rest of the day. I hope that soon the plug will be pulled. The water is cold and stale now.
At lunchtime I had an online appointment with a fellow EFT/Matrix Re-Imprinting colleague who specializes in Meta-Health. I met her briefly during my training a few years ago now and I have great admiration and respect for the work that she does. You can find out more about Penny Croal's work here
My session with Penny was enlightening and heartening. My spirit began to sour once more as the trauma left my scar ridden body. I still have a journey ahead but it's a start. It is a change ahead and it is something that I do not need to fear but rather to be embraced.
Of course, I will get moments of doubt, sadness, anger, fear and grief, but they are all worthy of acknowledgement. I can choose to let them flow in me and through me until they find a way out. I can guide them all, just like little children needing to be loved. I am not afraid to hold their hands.

This afternoon I was so wiped that I slept for an hour. I honestly feel like such an old woman at the moment. My only consolation is that in rest, the body heals. I still wake up forgetting the recent physical traumas. I wish that I could stay in my dreamworld.
In other news I have created a new 'Quirky Cow' illustrated storyboard. I don't quite know how my mind conjures up the images but conjure it does and they make me laugh out loud. I am so excited by them.
The beauty of being so tired and stuck at home all day, means I have no distractions to divert my attention from my artwork. What do other people do when they don't have creativity though?.........