I wish

 

I wish I could tell you how I have a fire in my belly that has burnt within me since coming home from \Alderney.

I wish I could tell you, how 4 weeks ago I was lying in the darkness of my tent alone and torch-less, in despair on how I would occupy my time for the next week forced to accept and to even learn to love my own company.

I wish I could tell you how, on the second night, as I walked 2 miles back to my tent drunk and full of anguish and on reaching the beach, I sat in the moonlight and wept away years of hurt and pain, anguish and fear and whilst doing so, I felt the sea cleanse my soul and wash away all my anger and all my rage.

I wish I could tell you on waking the next morning, how everything had changed…....

I wish I could tell you, how a few days later, I met someone, who has profoundly changed my world and how they have stirred up my passion to live life creatively, spiritually and confidently and how they have taught me that to love, is to let go and that my connection to them goes far deeper than anything physical.

I wish I could tell you that I am ready to embrace life and all that it has to offer and that my past will never affect me negatively again and how I have forgiven all those who have hurt me or done me wrong.

I wish I could tell you how much love I have in my heart for all my family, my friends and my pets and how enormously grateful for all the love and support I get back in return.

I wish that I could tell you all of those things, but I think you already know......